I found out this week from my husband and sister that I’ve been a grouch for a couple of weeks. It really wasn’t intentional. I’ve just been anxiety riden about this project. So I took a deep breath, employed the “Fake it till you make it” motto and have felt much better. My husband confirmed that I’ve been my normal self.
So sorry if my posts have been grumpy
I also apologize for missing Monday’s Blog. The weekend was filled with two birthday celebrations, so on Monday I couldn’t afford to take the time to do the blog. My word count is the same as last week, 14,000.
I’ve decided it’s time to let you know what I’ve been working on: I’m self publishing. It’s been a decision a long time coming, I think. In highschool, I was a high achiever and happy to do everything the traditional way. In college, I kept the traditional mindset at a university that was definitely non-traditional in many facets. It worked for me. I landed what I considered to be one of the best teaching jobs for music in elementary schools in New Mexico.
When I became a parent, I was one of those who read all the parenting technique books. To my astonishment, they didn’t work. These were experts and experts had never steered me wrong before. But I, like most parents I think, figured out that parenting is about making it up as you go.
When I decided over a decade ago that I wanted to be a published author, I went to work on taking the traditional route. I took classes, I read books about writing, I joined crit groups, I read books about getting published, I did my 100 rejections in a year stint to toughen up, and I sent a few query to agents. But honestly, I can’t bring myself to do the agent route any more. I think I’ve spent too much time making it up as I go.
Firstly, the trends for what agents are looking for change so rapidly that I get whiplash. I can’t write fast enough to keep up with them. When agents tweet that they are looking for a dragon who loves vampires story, you’d better have a dragons who love vampires story already written and send it to them that day. Tomorrow that trend will be dead and they will be looking for zombies who love witches.
Secondly, the audience of agents and editors is very small compared to the world at large. The audience of editors at professional paying short story markets is even smaller. One of the things that my husband said to me that pushed me towards my decision was, “So and so and so and so both have English degrees. If they ran a magazine, would they like your story and accept it?” The answer was no. Even if one of my stories was perfectly executed, they would not be the audience for what I typically write. But if I post it to kindle, I have the opportunity for thousands of people to enjoy it. Much better odds than agents and editors.
Thirdly, I simply don’t like agent research. It’s time I could be spending learning how to write better and writing new stories. I was so short on time this week, I ended up pulling an all nighter editing in the middle of the week. Good thing I already had my attitude adjusted because otherwise I would’ve been a real bitch the next day. As much work as self-publishing is taking, it’s work that I enjoy and feel will be more satisfying in the long run.
I’m not anti-agent for other people. I just don’t think they’re for me. And don’t worry, this blog is about writing. I intend to still have guest bloggers about the agent and publishing side of things, particularly Holly who is so good at it and is reaching for the dream of the Big Six.
I’m sure I’ll post many blogs about self publishing. For now, I’ll say that this is a group effort. Julie is my editor, who I think does a fabulous job. I only ever recieved glowing compliments about her from people who won Photo Flare and had their stories edited by her. My husband is helping with the formating side of things. The first novel we’re publishing is under my pen name, and it’s due to come out next weekend. If you want to know my pen name, just shoot me an email. I’m not embarrased to be writing romances, but it’s a completely different brand than Enchanted Spark. My pen name blog doesn’t talk about writing at all. It’s all about romance there. The next story we’re going to do is a short story that I love, but never got accepted by a pro or semi pro market. I’m pretty sure I can make at least as much as I would if I published it with a token market, so we’re going to put that one out too. And then it will be another romance book in December or January.
That’s my big news. How did you guys do this week?